Too soon for hope..

Well Saturday I noticed some spotting, but didn't want to get too invested in it. Then today AF pretty much started. I told myself I'd be ok since we didn't try that much this time around, but it still sucks. I need to hurry up & get back on Medicaid so I can make an appt. with my OBGYN to make sure everything is ok with me. Hopefully that'll put my mind at ease & I'll stop thinking it's my fault I'm not getting pregnant. Sometimes I think to myself that maybe I'm not meant to have kids. I don't want to think that way, but it happens. People say things happen for a reason, well what was the reasoning behind us losing Finn?